whaa...

blank. i feel so dead right now...

today, after i got off the bus that took us to our living quarters, i was walking with my head down, so tired, and when i look up, there is a car like right in front of me. i didn't even realize i was walking mindlessly in the middle of the street. i actually had to jump out of the way, or else i would of been a stain.

i hate life.

i am doomed.

i should of died today.

sometimes i wish for it.

today, i took a walk as i puffed on a port, wanting to disappear. and then i stood next to the wall and just disappeared, in my head i guess. i want to cease to exist. it's not like i wanna die, because people would still remember me, i wanna disappear from this earth, as well as people's minds and hearts.

i hate myself.

i am descending straight into Hades.

i should disappear.

sometimes i feel as if i do.

if you read this, give _mynoose_ a visit...
he's new to the neighborhood.

thank you so very much.